Ever sense that night I just haven't felt the same. All I feel is guilt. I've stolen things before but it has never affected me in such a way. I just feel like it wasn't worth it. I mean all I got out of the robbing was a nice watch but it doesn't even work so I'm going to try and get it fixed later but the cops always hang around the jewelry store and try to catch thieves like me.
(later that week)
I thought that I could get away I thought that I could run faster than any fat white cop but I couldn't. I was caught and now I'm in prison. I never thought that I could be stupid enough to get caught but here I am. What if daddy were to see me now he would be ashamed, and momma she would be furious. I was sentence to 10 years. But hopefully with good behavior I can get less time than that. I have no thoughts about misbehaving while I'm in here.

https://www.google.com/search?q=the+jail+malcolm+x+was+in&rlz=1C1GCEA_enUS779US779&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjx0oyfic7YAhUp3IMKHWxlDqkQ_AUIDCgD&biw=1366&bih=662&safe=active&ssui=on#imgrc=jFnWjq2NhCpycM: 

Now that I'm fully moved in with Ella and have had some time to explore the city I have started looking for a job. I can't just stay cooped up in the house all day with Ella. I love her but that's just too much bonding time together. The other day I went on a walk to down town Suger Hill and was just minding my own business when I feel a hard slap on my shoulder. I turn around see a white boy maybe 16, 17 years old and he says to me, " Haven't seen you before what your name?" I answer shocked, ''Um Malcolm". He responds with something I would have never expected, " You seem like a cool cat. If you are looking to make some new friends then come on down to the pavilion, at 10 tonight." I of course said yes. I knew that Boston was more of a hot and new upcoming area, but I didn't think that it was going to be like that.  I'll have to talk to Ella about it when I get home later but regardless of what she says I'm going. 

Well Momma and I talked and I going to Boston. Ella said, that I could stay with her

for the whole summer. To see how I like Boston enough to move out there

permanently. Ella doesn't want me to get a job right away she says she wants me

to ,”Enjoy being young and not having responsibilities”. But I want to get right into

the hussel and bussel of the new city. A new city is a new beginning for me. It’s a

fresh start, no one knows my past and the things I have had to do to help my family.

Momma ended up surprising me and buying my bus ticket to Boston with the squirrel

fund that we use for the winter. I’m need to pay her back when I start working again in

Boston because without the squirrel fund the rest of the family won’t be able to eat in

the winter.     

https://www.eskimo.com/~carcosa/forsale.html

This is the picture Ella sent me of her home in Boston.
http://historicboston.org/portfolio_page/malcolm-x-house/

   I was fired from my job last week at the farmers market. I haven't told momma yet but I know that this is probably going to be the last straw for me. Momma suggested that I go live with my half-sister Ella in Boston for a few week but I'm sure if I want to go live with her and not be able to help the family out anymore and they need all the help they can get. Even though it would probably help the family out if they didn't have to feed another mouth for a few months. Ella wrote me this week for the second time telling me that I should at least come stay with her for the summer and see if I would like it. I'm going to talk to momma about it when she gets home from work. The one issue is that I'm not sure how I'm going to pay for the bus ticket to get me there, I could get a line of credit from the bank but daddy always said that credit is bad and you should always use cash.  

                                                                       Malcolm X

Momma wants me to start looking for a job soon. She says that it's my time to start helping
out around the house more. I was thinking I would go into town after school today and ask
old Mr. Weldon if he's hiring at the farmers market. He probably won't hire me even if I was
a white.My brothers and I about a week ago were seen running away from the market with
a full bag of apples. If he turns me down and I don’t find another job mama said that
I might have to go with the government people will come and take my siblings and I
away because we won’t have enough for food. Ever since daddy died momma just
hasn't been the same she just hasn't been as motivated as she was when he was
alive.  I pray every day that she can keep enough of her strength to keep going to
keep the family going.